I believe that I am called to ministry, this is abundantly clear to me. Like all things in life though, my calling has never been just black and white, or very simple. I say that because I believe that I am actually called to much more than just ministry, I think we all are. Let me explain:
When I was in high school I ended up going on a missions trip by accident. At this point in my life I was in an abusive relationship, I lived on a mountain of lies and was a shell of the person I once was, a slave to circumstance and sin. From the time that I got into a minivan at the church in the Bay Area to the time that I got out of the minivan in Mexico, where we were staying and would be working, my eyes had been pried open to the things I had never wanted to see. I knew I needed God and I simply couldn’t unknow it. I felt like a square peg returning to a round hole of a life, I had no idea how I was going to fit.
My journey was rough and it took time to break a relationship that ruled my life for so long, and bring truth to the lies that I sat upon that were so incredibly comfortable. God is bigger though; He is too powerful and too good to let those things consume me. God carried me out of the depravity of life I was living in, all the while continuing to remind me that He wrote my story and I was called to share it.
To those who receive abuse from others, a story of redemption is one they are desperately searching for and God gave me a story of redemption and so I am to share it. For those who cant breathe under the weight of lies and wickedness their life is made up of and who are desperately looking for relief, looking to see that there is a way out, God saved me and so I am to share that story. These things I have experienced, my story, is a gift that God has given me so graciously and I am called to proclaim it and to help those people, my story was never intended to end with me.
I believe there is even more to this calling though. I believe I am called to hold all things loosely. I believe I am called to live a life surrendered to God which means going wherever He may call me, and doing whatever He may call me to do. It is my temptation to fight the waves of God's will, to cling to what I want and desire, both in ministry and in life, but I believe it is my calling to surrender and cooperate with His will. I believe it is my honor to participate in what God is doing.
I believe that my calling is to spread the gospel, share my story, and live a life surrendered to God.
Label/Tags: Ministry, Calling, Story, Sharing, Surrender, Salvation, Hold Loosely, Abuse, Redemption
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